Facebook won't let me post notes.

It's pissing me off.

I use Facebook notes to tell things to people who I know in real life, like, in my community. I WANT TO TELL THEM THINGS. Maybe I have too many notes or something. The screen just keeps coming up blank when I try to make a new one or edit an old one.

Ever since my perception of God changed I kind of feel like I don't have a lot to do. I used to always feel anxious about doing things because I thought I had to in order to please God. Now that I don't feel like I have to please Him I kind of feel really good to not feel anxious, but at the same time, a little bored and lost in terms of hour to hour activities.

I'm pretty sure it will pass. Part of me used to resent God and so that made doing things I thought He wouldn't like more enjoyable. Like I was sticking it to Him or something. Now that I don't see Him as a total douche, I don't have much of a reason to stick it to Him anymore. Maybe I need to refine my perception of Him more.

I do still have a little resentment. Perhaps part of me didn't want to believe in Him at all. I guess I'm scared of that idea. I don't know who I would be or if people I liked would like me anymore.

Good thing I am writing this out because it helps me sort through this stuff so much easier.