Seriously

I fix people's computers for like the not real job I have. It's not real because hardly anyone ever calls me to fix their computer.

I don't know if I want to fix anyone's computer anyway.

I live with my dad. He gets annoying sometimes. I try to tell him how to not be annoying and then he gets more annoying. I should try to get him to not drink, but I don't know how to do that. Alcohol has always been a good thing in my life. I don't understand why it makes him so much worse at life.

I'm mean to people. Just kind of random people. It's a newer thing to me. I used to be a really quiet person. Then over time I decided no one else knew what they were doing and I should tell them what they should be doing. Sometimes it feels good to be mean, when it really seems like someone deserved it and then sometimes I feel like I go too far.

My dad is annoying. I'm only staying here so he isn't all by himself. He just thinks he's extremely awesome or something and cares a lot about everyone liking him. My mom went out to Colorado to go to school because she couldn't handle my dad being like that. He is pretty weird. Though, I don't really like my mom either.

This is like a really bad day. Hopefully everything will be better when I go to sleep. I sleep at weird times. It's 6:20 AM right now. I usually sleep like 7am to 3pm.

My life is just extremely stupid at the moment. It all seems to revolve around this girl. I wrote some weird stuff to her again and asked her if maybe we shouldn't hang out and she said, ya, we probably shouldn't. Even though I thought that's how it should be, it's just so depressing to me.

I need a computer job to distract me. Ya. I do. Or something really odd. I need an odd distraction. Or not. Maybe I'll just sleep for 3 days. Maybe I'll sleep in the rain.