i can't because i'm a psychopath.
there's this girl that i like and she has a boyfriend. i hate her boyfriend and he doesn't even live around here anymore.
i was pretty crazy before my brother died and now it's like i have no reason to stop myself from doing anything. i used to care a little bit about what people thought of me. now i don't at all.
anyway, this girl is all friendly with me now, because she has to be, because she doesn't want to feel guilty if i kill myself like my brother, and i've always liked her. i would always write strange messages to her on facebook and she would always ignore them before.
so after she's nice to me one night and we have a pretty long talk, i just can't handle it and a few days later i write a message to her on facebook saying i have a crush on her or whatever and she doesn't respond, so i get all pissed and write another message all like, 'i don't know know how to deal with you not responding except to hate you,' and then i feel bad the next day and write another message all like, 'i take everything back'.
then today she messages me and is like, 'you're funny. i just got these all today. you know i have a boyfriend, right?'
and i'm all like, 'i'm not funny. i'm crazy :( yes, i knew that.' and she's like 'everyone's crazy' and then i'm like, 'tell me how you're crazy.'
no response. then i'm like, ' i'm not completely crazy. anyway... i was waiting for you to respond to that last message but maybe you left.'
no response. by this point i'm pretty sure she left, so i'm all like, ' it seems weird to me that you would leave. i think i'm just going to ignore you from now on.'
i'm pretty sure she still hasn't read any of it. she'll probably respond in some strange way tomorrow.
i don't really think i'm justified in most of this. i should probably learn to fall in love with girls that don't have boyfriends. her boyfriend is just such a tool tho. he's actually my dead brother's wife's brother. so that's interesting. i don't really like my brother's wife's family. ya, if any of you are reading this. fuck you. please tell me if you read it tho, so i know why you're mad at me.
I hated my brother's wife. We went to high school together and I thought she was the meanest girl in school. If I saw her on the street today, I would really hope that she would start something with me so that I could either just make her look really bad or beat the shit out of her.
ReplyDeleteI think you should stop writing these fb posts to this girl. I used to be obsessed with someone who was, well, married, and waiting for him to respond was excruciating! I can't have a friendship anyway resembling normal with him so we can't even be friends. What kind of music do you listen to? The Lucy Ford EP got me through a lot of those feelings..